The first three weeks of not working were complicated. Somehow, I felt both relieved and super-stressed at the same time. I reminded myself that for weeks prior to my termination, I thought about stopping working immediately pretty much all the time, and I knew I was happy not to be there anymore. And at the same time, I felt so stressed that some nights I could barely sleep.
In situations like that, I try to identify exactly what worries me and address that concern first. I knew I had enough money to retire; we discussed it with my wealth manager, and I knew 1.5 years earlier wouldn’t make a dramatic difference. One thing was healthcare. I hadn’t planned to retire before I became Medicare-eligible, and now I faced almost a year with no coverage. I felt a little bit better when I realized that even if I had self-pay COBRA for all that time, it would still be manageable because I have no dependents, and that calmed me down for a while. Then I talked to my wealth manager, and he confirmed again that I can retire in January if I want. His calculations on how much I will be able to spend each month sounded very conservative to me, but his plan was for me to leave a fortune after I pass away, which was not in my plans, so I figured that if I do not plan to leave 2 M behind, I can spend pretty much the same as I do now.
Another thing was the void of “doing nothing.” Once again, in the weeks before that, I told myself and others I had so much to do, and the thing I wanted to do least was work, so I wanted to stop working. I knew I wanted to work part-time anyway, so I started working part-time for my good friend and peer, to whom I promised a long time ago I’d do some consulting when I retired. However, onboarding with his client took forever, and I realized I missed the drama of crisis resolution.
At the same time, several other things were developing. Shortly before I left my previous job, three different people reached out to me with some potential job opportunities, and all three were interesting in some way, so I started talking to them, still not being 100% sure whether I wanted to go full-time.
One of these opportunities didn’t work right away; the other two were going, and I strongly felt about one of these two. During the interviews, I felt that that was the right match, and I thought that if this company would make me an offer, I would accept. Then, to my complete disappointment, they said they were going with someone else, but they were planning to open another position soon. At that point, I decided to reveal my availability on LinkedIn. I was still unsure, but I thought that possibly someone I knew would have an interesting project I could do part-time. I made a post as broad as possible, and I can tell right away I didn’t like what followed.
